My journalling on the back of the layout says:
I was 21- modelling, working in the Casino, living on my own and I had just met the man I knew I would marry and make my life with. Life doesn't get much better than this. Little did I know that I would be taken out of my comfort zone and sent to some one horse town that didn't even have a supermarket, never mind other people our own age to mix with. Then back to the city for another posting, and then to another country where we didn't know a soul. I would loose my mother and endure 9 years of fertility treatment almost alone. I would have two children and raise them almost single handed while working a full time job while Simon carved out a career for himself.
What the hell happened to my rosy outlook on married life with a cute little house and garden, the little white picket fence and the loving husband and well behaved children.
I got it all in the end but there were times when I struggled to get out of bed in the morning and there were days that I don't even begin to remember getting through, and even more days when I just wanted to throw the towel in. I look back amazed that my children turned out the way that they have and I am so proud of them. They say that everything that happens to you moulds you into the person you are today. So who am I today? And what happened to that fresh faced innocent in the photo? Life - that's what happened and no-one ever promised that it would be easy.
I came through it all and I am outwardly relatively normal but
inside I am a mess, I keep everything bottled up, I often find it very hard to articulate how and what I feel. I don't cry, and I am a kind of "put on you big girl panties" girl. I am fairly pragmatic when it comes to most stuff and my outlook is - "it is what it is". I find I still do what needs to be done to get through - no matter what the cost to me. I put everyone else before me and I hardly ever say no. I am a people pleaser and I never learned how to deal with confrontation, I had no life skills to help me cope with anything. I just had to muddle my way through and learn the hard way. I made epic mistakes which have taken their toll. But I am still here and I am still learning and I have hope.
If I could say just one thing to my younger me it would be.
It will be alright in the end. If it is not alright it is not the end.
Here are some close ups.
I really love this Kaiser Craft paper... I still have a little left too :D I put the floral paper through my corrugator to give it some texture. The title is one of the chipboard dies.
The banners were from the die cut sheet too... the flowers are Petaloo.
The next project is a valentines day card that I made for a swap for a Facebook group that I belong too.
I used my heart dies to cut out the hearts and the bling ones are chipboard that I covered with distress glitter for a pop.
I made the card on watercolour paper and used my heart stencil with some texture paste to add some dimension. I then used some watercolour and made some splatters and the sewn lines is a stamp. I finished it off with some bakers twine and string.
Thanks for stopping by to take a look and for taking the time to leave me a comment I really appreciate it.
Till next time - Happy Scrapping!